Conquering Personal Demons (Patreon Content)

People die only once.

But the ones who battle depression and anxiety, experience little death each moment.

It feels as if I am standing alone late at night on a lonely platform with a ticket and a luggage in my hand to board the only train which just left me.

I stand there in the cold night, feeling lonely and hollow inside with despair.

I prepare myself to board the next train, and it arrives soon.

But that feeling of hollowness stays somewhere within, which I never want to relive ever in my life.

(To be continued……)

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Introducing My Patreon Page

“Ponkti” (পঙক্তি) is not my last name, it is actually my nickname. I just kept it as my last for various personal reasons and one of them is to show that I am a Bengali for those who can recognize.
Just like any proud Bengali parents, my dad nicknamed me Ponkti when I was born, which simply means “lines or quotes of poems”. Bengali people are into literature and poetry. Most of them love giving their children some poetic fancy names.
Fast forward, all these years I became quite the opposite of a poet-an an electrical and electronics engineer. Even in my leisure, I live and breathe everything related to technology and startups, and frequently love to talk about Jungian Cognitive Functions.
I am active on QuoraMedium, and my own personal WordPress blog.
My personal blog is where I write casually about whatever I want without any strings attached. I have been blogging since 2014. I have also been picked as Quora’s one of the top writers in 2018 (for God knows why), and even in real life, I have always been praised for my thoughts, writing, and speech.
Engineers (can and) do write well as well. I do my little part to break that stereotype each day.
I have decided to add a Patreon page for exclusively curated content for my paying viewers.
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Dream Architect

This is one of the many modular fictional stories like The Man And His Mysterious Kitten, which are slated to be part of a big novel.

Right now I am sitting next to John on the wing of an abandoned, rusty military airplane in the middle of a big field full of grass. The crashed plane’s bottom is buried in the ground and wings are touching the soil. The weather is gentle and pleasant, the sky is slightly cloudy and romantic with the sun peeking through occasionally.

I am wearing a black long gown which has some very nice blue-aqua handwork around my kneck, chest, and full sleeves. I am also wearing some silver jewelry paired with my Indo-western fusion outfit. A gentle breeze is playing through my long brown hair which is coming from the ocean afar and John next to me is wearing a blue-white plaid shirt and pants.

He broke the silence, “A broken plane in the middle of a big field and then an ocean, right in front of us nearby? What kinda weird place is this?”

I replied, “Well, this is a fuse between Dayton, Ohio and San Diego, California. The best I could think of..”

John laughed, “Oh! Great! It is like the Pacific Ocean in the Midwest! You are the best dream architect I could have thought of. I cannot come up with these. Everything is so incredibly detailed including what we are wearing and how I am feeling at this very moment. Even though all of it is fake. Everything seems symbolic and philosophical..”

I added, after a long breath, “Yeah now-a-day simulation seems more real than real life. Is there any point of living with a body, if I can just visualize everything in my head? Somehow maybe my mind can survive. What do you think?”

John, “What? You sound kinda depressed. How is your education going? Any new jobs? Any new prospects? What are you up to these days?”

I added with an upsetting tone, “Let’s not ask anything about real life. You cannot imagine what I have been going through. You are also partly responsible for this. I still cannot make peace with the fact that you were against me as well… I hope you can keep your job in that hell hole!”

John yelled, “Hey! Calm down…Okay.”

Suddenly the weather changed. Clouds got darker and the wind got stronger. It’s as if a storm is about to happen.

John asked, “What’s going on?”

I said, “Well, this is a reflection of our changing mood. The weather pattern changes accordingly in simulation showing our discomfort. Well, in real life our life events change according to our state of mind and we do not realize.”

John just vanished. He took off. He is probably pissed right now. I turned off my simulation headpiece which connects through my head’s brain implant.

Even outside my window, I see stormy weather. There was no indication of such a thing in the weather app a while ago. Is this a pure coincidence? The last time when I was feeling angry and depressed with John I felt a sharp pain in my head and wasn’t it stormy outside?


To be continued…

The Man And His Mysterious Kitten

This is a fictional story and has the potential to be part of a bigger story.

hello kitty

There is a very beautiful fluffy big-eyed white kitten sitting quietly on the cabinet right next to John’s office desk staring at him. She is dressed as the hello kitty. John just arrived in his room at 7:00 am. He usually gets here before everybody else. He is surprised to see this cat. Where did she come from so early in the morning? John has a soft corner for kittens. He picked the kitty up in his arms and found a typed up note which said:

” A gift for you, from someone from your past.”

This must have been a prank. John does not like drama. Is it possible that his wife is testing John, whether he has a past or not? His coworkers are not really prankster-type.

John tried to put the cat down on the table, but the cat just hung on to his shirt buttons with her little paws. John hugged her again and the cat seemed very content. John sat on his chair with the kitty in his arms. He kept thinking, “Who could it be? I hope Karen(supervisor) doesn’t see this cat.” He then thought, “What if Karen herself brought it for him? But why would she do that?” He got up with the kitten earnestly hugging his kneck, to check on Karen’s room. Karen did not arrive just yet.

Even though the office starts at 7:15 am, most people come around 7:45 am to 8:00 am and some leave the office very late. John lives very close to walking distance. He thought about taking the kitty home and coming back. His wife is at work too. But what if someone lost the kitten? But who brings a cat in the office? This kitten seems really well-groomed. It cannot be a stray cat. As if someone put a lot of thought into it and he or she knows that John will like the cat.

He gently placed the kitten down on his table and she snuggled near the keyboard. Aww! It’s so cute! Where should John inquire about the cat? What if someone claims it?

John texted his wife, “I found a kitten on my desk. Are you playing a prank on me? It says this is a gift from the past.” His wife probably left for office. She will drop their toddler to the day-care before heading to the office. So it will take some time for her to reply.

He thought, “If I take the kitty home, where will I place it? Is she potty trained? Is she hungry?”

It is 7:30 am already. Nobody came to the office yet. It is strange. All the cubicles nearby are still empty. Is everyone playing pranks with John?

He picked the cat up, drove to Walmart, bought a bag of cat food, two bowls, litter box and drove home which is across the street to Walmart. He put out two bowls in his hobby room: filled one with water, another with food. He moved his hobby stuff from the table to the top of the cupboards so that the kitten could not climb on the table and knock things off. He locked the room and drove back to the office.

It is 8:30 am now. By now most people are here. He saw his supervisor passing by. John out of his guilt told her even though he was not asked, “I came early just like all the other days, but had an emergency. So I had to run back home.”- to which Karen gave a fake smile like she understood and cared.

He still has not asked anyone yet about the mysterious cat. All this means that he already liked and accepted the kitten and he does not wish to lose her.


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Space Dream!

Inspired by a true event.

I did not know cats can have tonsillitis too! Weird! I had that once or twice during my childhood. My kitty Lory has been crying with a runny nose near the doorway for the last couple of days. We are residing in a giant space pod as the test subjects in a space colony parked on high earth orbit. Right now there are a lot of flat irregular shaped giant space pods surrounding the earth with many test subjects- humans, animals just like ours. They look like some gray space rock from afar. I signed up for this with my pet for some extra cash. I am broke after my graduation and did not land a job right away.

I called the hotline and found out there is no vet in our pod. The next day I was informed that we are staying in a sterilized organic oxygen-producing environment and we are being checked every day everywhere. So if the cat caught tonsillitis that means there are some unknown bacteria in the space pod. So a team is coming to take us back to earth for a few days while they take care of the cat and clean or check the whole space vehicle.

The next day a group of four people came; one lady and three gentlemen from the earth. We went back to earth and parked the vehicle on a beach during the day time. They said my cat is being taken care of and I must leave immediately, it will take only tonight to fix everything and tomorrow morning we can go back in mission.

I followed the lady and the guys’ team who brought us back. We had dinner together and we small talked a little bit. It became dark quickly. After a while, the lady said let’s go. I was following them but I told them that I need to go to the bathroom. After I came back I did not see them. I started panicking a little bit. I have dyslexia with direction sometimes. If I do not pay attention I cannot find ways back. I was still trying my best to follow a direction that I thought was correct. I was walking towards the wooden pier. At the end of the pier, there are these two stairs going down and I believe that I have to take the left one. As I was walking down, I heard some people coming towards my direction talking about a parked space pod and an escaped suspect! I asked them what they were talking about and they said, they heard some guy ran away from a hijacked space pod near the beach and pointed their fingers where I was heading. I thought this couldn’t be right. So I must go in the opposite direction; there must be more than one space pod parked and not just ours.  Because I did not escape from our mission!

At this point I woke up from my dream. I slept really late last night, around 3 AM and now it’s almost 12pm. OMG! The dream was so vivid but obviously it was a dream that’s why a lot of things had missing pieces or did not make sense at all. But in the dream everything seemed logical. Also I noticed that I was a guy there even though I am a female. I don’t recall watching any Sci-Fi movies recently. Where did the plot come from in my head? I am sorry guys, if you somehow found this blog post bizarre.

Martian Tabloid (Game of Thrones)

Read: A Date Night in Mars


Lana and Kee are riding a dragon together. What a terrific view of the landscape from up here. The dragon is flying with full force over the green mountains and sometimes even flipping in the air just like a fighter jet.

Lana is controlling the dragon. Kee asks as loudly as he can, “So what’s the point of flipping the dragon?”

Lana shouts back, “Haha… I just thought you might like it.”

Kee screams, “Ah! I was almost falling off…”

Kee adds, “Don’t burn anything Dany!”


They were heading towards Kings’ Landing.  Kee and Lana played Jon Snow and Daenerys Targaryen respectively.

Lana’s phone rings. She needs to go back to work. She takes out the wifi/Bluetooth enabled virtual reality gear from her head which connects through the bio-chip in her head.

Kee says, “Oh! no. You have to go now?”


Both of them step outside the game room. The red Martian landscape is seen from the glass windows. The virtual game that they were playing is made after a famous 21st-century television series from earth named Game of Thrones.

Virtual reality is a day-to-day thing now. People used to watch games and movies. Now they have become parts of it.

A lot of things are virtual now including virtual dating and hookups. People live longer now, there is no need to increase the population. Human babies are born in labs out of test-tube embryos from parents they don’t know. There is no need for traditional marriages, having kids and raising a family.

Plus, simulation is better than reality anyway. Everyone is a pro in simulation. There is no need to be a physical expert in anything. It’s mostly in the brain anyway.


To be continued….

What the SHORT STORIES are missing in blogs

Not just in blogs but anywhere, storytelling is an art. Not many people are good at it-particularly at short story telling.

I have read a lot of stories in blogs from a lot of aspiring authors. Number one thing that I miss is called the “content” At one time I was reading a story after following a link, the author is probably trying to imply that he has great vocabulary.  He pretty much used uncommon words wherever he could. Majority of the readers would need the help of a dictionary for every word that he used-thus feeling lost in finding the meaning of the words but not being able to see the whole story itself.

Another time, I found a very smooth kind of writing style. In fact, the words had such a nice zen like flow that I forgot I was reading a story, I thought it was poetry. When I reached the bottom, I found out actually there was no story line and in fact the author went off-topic.

When we write novels, I think details are important. But when we write “short stories” we should be able to give a high level perspective-the larger picture of the plot without driving readers away in opposite directions.

And please, no one reads long posts and posts which are too difficult to read. This is a fact. Keep it simple with an easy flow, while building up the content of your story gradually, so that it hooks the readers from the beginning till the end.

Thanks.

A Paranormal Halloween

Today is October 27, 2016. That means Halloween is near. Jessica cannot forget last year’s Halloween Party. She usually does not celebrate Halloween. She basically tries to avoid all kinds of social gatherings. She is a typical introvert and a geeky type of person who feels awkward around people.

She is a sophomore in college and lives in a college apartment sharing with three other girls. So her dorm friends took her to a Halloween party. They coaxed her so much that she could not say no.

There were two other girls with her, named Sara and Leena. They were all going to Leena’s cousin’s place for a Halloween costume party. Sara got dressed as Wonder-woman, she seemed kinda provocative. Leena wore a skeleton face-makeup. Jessica decided to dress like Big Bang Theory’s Amy. She figured out this character matched her personality, it was easy to pull it off and she would not feel that awkward.

They arrived at a big house with a large yard very creatively decorated for the occasion. Inside the living and dining room, the party had already started. There were mostly young college people. Jessica went to the backyard of the house and picked a quiet area to sit. There was no one here. She seems to get nervous around people and does not know how to really start a conversation or exactly what to do.

She took her phone out of her purse and found the network service getting really slow. She did not have any data left on her phone to browse the internet. Soon she saw a guy in the backyard. He almost appeared out of nowhere. She was wondering where this person was because she did not see him inside the house. He came close and sat nearby.

He smiled and said, “Hey! I am Mike”.

Jessica with an awkward smile said, “Hi. I am Jessica”. There were a few moments of silence. Jessica then asked, “Do you know the WiFi password by any chance?”

Mike replied, “Nah! I don’t use that…don’t need it.” Then he added, “You should go inside, your friends are waiting.”

Jessica thought to herself, what kind of person doesn’t use WiFi? She noticed Mike is very handsome, but something is kinda odd and creepy about this guy. He is still smiling and staring at her. A very gentle breeze passed and made the whole atmosphere very eerie.

Leena and Sara were calling for Jessica to come inside. She got up to step inside and turned back but did not see Mike there. Strange! She had chills in her spine. When she came inside, she said,” I was asking Mike about WiFi password. He doesn’t know. Do you know Leena?”

Leena squinted her eyebrows and said, “Who is Mike?”

Jessica replied, “That guy in the back yard. He said his name is Mike.”

They entered into the living space where everyone was cheering and being loud. Jessica was about to look for that guy but she noticed a big photo of Mike smiling at one side of the wall. She pointed her finger at the wall and said, “That guy.”

Leena dragged her into the corner. She said, “Oh this Mike is my cousin who died a few years ago. This is his parents’ house. You are kidding me, right? You must have asked for his name from someone. Don’t try to trick me, Jessica !”-Leena and Sara laughed.

Jessica’s jaw dropped. Her hand palms started to sweat and she had goosebumps. She could have sworn that she saw that guy. Did she just see Mike’s ghost? Or did Leena and everyone try to trick her? This must be a joke! She felt really angry all of a sudden and decided to take an Uber to get back to her dorm.

Later she found out that Mike had, in fact, died in an accident.

A Date Night On Mars

A Date Night-

Lana is sitting next to a giant oval-shaped window in a cafe called “Cafe Blue Moon”. She asks Kee, her boyfriend, in her thoughts (through her implanted bio-cell chip) how long Kee will take to come. While waiting for him, she is looking at the vast Martian reddish landscape with a bright greenish tint of the artificial earthlike atmosphere layer created from the nearby ozone-house.

She had a chance to go back to visit Earth a few years ago. Earth is not the same anymore. Even with all the damage that human species caused to Mother Earth, she is still far better than Mars in Lana’s opinion. Although quite extreme and unpredictable, Earth still has a breathable atmosphere for humans. Lana is nostalgic about the moonlit night experience she had while staring at the present otherworldly scenery. It was the first time she stepped outside on Earth’s surface without a special suit and an ozonic helmet. She breathed fresh air for the first time in her life, but was informed it is not fresh anymore, still, it reminded her as if she is home. Now she is telling herself, “Cafe Blue Moon what an ironic name for a cafe on Mars!”

Back Story –

It is 2233 now, 200 years since humans first made a manned journey to Mars. Lana and Kee are middle-class Martian people, but their ancestors were privileged earthlings who left Earth in the face of catastrophe. She read from the diaries of her great grandparents that it took human civilization many years to make a major leap from landing on earth’s moon to step foot on Mars, and eventually colonizing Mars through a lot of trial and error. There were a lot of socio-political and economic obstacles against this great step of human evolution. Some people even mocked at this idea, saying, why do we need to spend money to die on Mars when there are so many real problems we should fix on our earth? But by 2050 things had gone so out of hand that now rich people were spending money to relocate to Mars, to escape away from the horror of wars and terror. Some people till this date blame the oil industry behind the demise of our beloved earth. They say the oil industry is a key player behind the environmental disaster, politics, wars, terror, greed and the major cause of keeping the advanced energy-saving and space-based technology away from the general public for a long time. There are still a few under-privileged humans left on Earth who are trying to survive in harsh, extreme weather without much help from technology.

When Lana landed on Earth with her crew, from far away she was observing some people riding horses and wearing a primitive outfit made from animal skin. She read in the history book, that is how human civilization started and that is where earthlings are left to be now!

By the year 2100, a large number of people from Earth permanently left for Mars and some for other inhabitable planets. But Lana thinks the power play of human species never stopped. There is still a social division based on economic status. People who belong to the wealthy and privileged upper class are trying to colonize the Earth-like planets in nearest neighborhood galaxies. This is not a recent breakthrough. In fact, it has been going around for a while, in parallel with the struggle of artificially making Mars-like planets habitable.  The people in power want to control who takes the journey to the special habitable planets. They have already sent selected people to spaceships, putting them to sleep in cryogenic hibernation. There are only rumored stories on how far these spaceships have gone. But these are classified projects that are beyond the reach of people like Lana and Kee. Some say, Martian humans, have mastered the technology of artificial warm whole and anti-matter propulsion systems a long time ago and has already put it into use to travel to very far places in the universe. Again, there is no way to verify this by middle-class Martians, this might be another rumor. Lana thinks that history is repeating itself, that instead of making all innovation and knowledge accessible to the general public, the upper class is controlling it for their own selfish agenda.

Every human baby born by now on Mars is genetically engineered and people’s life expectancy, thus has increased dramatically eliminating all possible hereditary diseases. Some WiFi enabled bio-chips are installed in their bodies which help them to communicate through their mind without using any words. They can search for any information in their head and they can also create holographic virtual screens to project information through their body parts. This widespread technology uses human’s coherent thoughts to do things that early computers or cell phones would do. Because of all these bio-implants, people argue that they are not fully human anymore. They are artificial human beings, previously termed cyborgs. The physical, demographic and capability of each individual is controlled by the authority- creating differences or diversity among people.

The sophisticated AI  industry has changed the game of the private transportation industry completely, while public transportation is a majorly Hyperloop technology-based. All private/individual transportation modes are fully autonomous. Whenever a person calls his or her mode of transportation in the head, it appears at convenient locations and it reads fingerprints of the owner to get started for the journey. It is almost like owning autonomous horses who can also switch gears to fly. Some of this technology was already developed on earth, human species just have taken it with them in outer space and have been modifying it ever since.

Back at the present moment-

Lana and Kee, unlike the current Martian youngsters, are very romantic. They love to read about the world’s and human civilization’s ancient history, poetry, literature and like to enjoy old classic films together. They often do things to create the old world charms and romanticism.

Lana is just about to ask one more time, what is happening to Kee? Although Kee can easily reply through his telepathic concepts, he decided to do something different. He sent a robotic bird with an envelope to Lana. When Lana opened the envelope, a holographic screen came out of it and it reads in Kee’s voice, “Something important came up at the last minute sweetie! I cannot come today. I am sorry… I love you.”

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Photo courtesy: SpaceX Envisions Building a City on Mars. Seriously.


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Space Dream!