intuition – My World

It is a starry night. I am on top of the tallest mountain, even taller than the Everest. I am sitting quietly, next to me is my favorite kitten, curled up. There is no one in between me and my God except for the vastness of the sky. I am reading a chapter from the Al-Quran, praying and contemplating. As if the time has stopped and I am sitting like this for eternity. There is no hustle and bustle of the urban life. There is no one around me except for my cat. I did not find any human worth while to share this secret place of my mind.

When I make a dua after a prayer, I imagine myself at a place like the above, just to think that I am more closer to God. This is really therapeutic. This kind of contemplation calms me down and shuts the chatter in my head. It enables me to look inside myself from a different perspective and right after I finish prayer, my unresolved problems seem to be solvable. Because, with some quiet time with myself, I come up with better plans to tackle problems in real life.

My personality type is INTJ-A and the above was just an example of how I use my primary function Ni (Introverted Intuition) aka “perspective”. INTJs are scientific minded and often time stereotyped as atheists. Because of this, INTJs who believe in a higher power, often mistake themselves as INFJs. But my tertiary function Fi (Introverted Feeling) aka “authenticity” is derived from my personal and traditional values as well as my individual sense of morality and beauty. And a higher power or God is a big part of my inner world. My idea about God is- someone who is the supreme source of all energy and we are part of him. There is nothing to be confused about. Talking to God is like talking to my massive creator/parent spirit from whom my (and everyone else’s) spirit have been derived.

INTJs are labeled as mastermind. Am I a mastermind? The ultimate mastermind is my God in my opinion. That’s why I leave most matters on him while I inherently get a sense from my strong intuition what might happen, the different possibilities and what I should do to prepare.

It is very interesting that an INTJ personality image is always portrait as someone who is looking at things from a top of a mountain as if he/she is gaining a big picture perspective. Even when I didn’t know about my MBTI/Jungian type, I always contemplated myself like that. A time when most kids and teenagers play outside, I spent most of leisure reading science fiction, novels based on world history, religious texts etc. I am an engineer by profession and I was quite academic too. I always had this very out of the box type weird intellect. I don’t share much about my inner world and thought process with others.

Anyway….that’s it for today. Do you pray? how do you mediate or relax? Share in the comment.

EDITING TO ADD: I just came across this image. I am not into horoscopes/zodiac signs. But is it a pure coincidence that I am a Capricorn and an INTJ? This is funny. Here you can see a Capi aka “mountain goat” enjoying her solitude from the top of a peak point.